I found this little button & thought it would be perfect for you, in case you eve have an identity crisis, or if your being ever feels denied, or something of that sort!
I do hope you aren't seriously suggesting that I have a "negligible interest at most" in your straitened circumstances! I really do care, but feel a little helpless about it. Do you budget yourself? I suppose you do, but are you an impulsive spender? I am, so I know what it's like. I've been very good lately, though, since I'm not working. I just tell myself that that money isn't mine. (Actually, I let myself have a certain amount to do the grocery shopping & maybe $10 more each week & whatever I want, I kind of "save" for from week to week.) It's crazy, I guess, but it feels like the right thing to do, to me. Maybe you could pretend that a certain amt of your money isn't yours. (Aside from the part that really isn't & save it & then splurge with the money later & buy something special for dinner, or something like that?
How nice that you'll all be together for Christmas. That's what I usually liked about Christmas, but I haven't spent a Christmas with my own family for 2 years. I kind of miss it. The other thing I like about it is making things for it -- (which I already told you in another letter). This year I'm making a wreath out of felt pieces on a styrofoam base. I've cut out everything I want to use -- holly leaves, red berries, mistletoe leaves, white berries, & a few Christmas symbols like a gold star, a few white doves, etc. It's coming along splendidly! Also, each year I make a few ornaments for the tree. The first y ear, I made some wooden ones & painted them. Last year I made a few clothespin ornaments & then decorate them & varnish them so they'll last. They also make nice gift tags. I guess I"ll do that next week sometime. Your calendars sound really nice. I'm sure everyone will like them better than a boughten gift, and they'll think of you every time they see it!
I'm awfully happy this week -- not that I've been unhappy before -- but I'm especially happy now. Maybe because I'm getting adjusted. I've actually been sleeping very well, only a very few real trying nights. I must attribute it to the fact that I'm finally over the frustration of Seton Hill. (I do still freeze up when I think of that place, though & its atmosphere!)
Speaking of jobs -- you asked what the situation was here. It's bleak, I won't mince words. The college here has some prissy rule about 5 years experience for librarians or 2 Masters -- so forget about that place. I went to talk to the director, but he's a real zombie, so I just smiled politely when he told me he was impressed by my letters of recommendation & then I left after he told me to get another Masters (at ISU, of course) & definitely he'd hire me then. Needless to say, I think he's absurd! The director of the public library is great -- only he has no jobs. If I get desperate I may volunteer because he's a very progressive person and I know he'd be good to work with. He was "impressed" too (or so he said). But he did try to find me something else -- even called people for me, but there isn't anything right now.
I'd like to get a job, because we have a $30,000 mortgage & I'd like to help pay it, but I don't see anything right now. Brook thinks I shouldn't just take anything, but wait for something good. (I may be waiting forever, of course.) I went into the bookstore at the mall & asked about part-time, but of course they just hired some one! My luck is great. Anyway, I'm hoping they have a quick turnover, so I left my application. It would be good experience, I guess, huh? It's a nice bookstore, too -- has lots of interesting stuff in it.
If I hear of anything, I'll let you know -- but jobs don't exactly stick to me -- especially good ones.
Brook has to stay late at work tonight -- to study confidential stuff. What a drag. I'm sure whatever it is isn't that secret. Oh well. I have to get him at 10:00, because the night bus stop is about a mile from the regular bus stop. Yesterday, Brook had me drive on Interstate 15. I was scared, but it really wasn't that bad. It was the first time I ever had the car in 4th intentionally. (I used to put it in 4th instead of 2nd all the time when I first started.) So now I guess I'm qualified to drive to the airport to pick people up when they come to visit. (I hope you'll be one of them someday.)
I don't think I told you that the movers broke my loom. Well, actually it may have been a blessing in disguise. The guy who came to see the part that was broken is a sheep farmer out in Blackfoot & he asked me to teach him how to spin, so I did & he's going to bring me several pounds a raw wool! I'm so excited. He called this morning & will be out this afternoon & will also have my loom piece -- hopefully!
It must be the day for phone calls. My friend Olga called from California at 6AM. I guess she was getting ready to go to work. I haven't spoken to her for 2 years! 'twas nice. One of my friends in NY wants me to get a cassette recorder so we can exchange tapes. I don't' know, though. I think I wouldn't like to speak onto tape as much as I like to write. Do you?
Oh well, I guess I'm finished talking your ear (eye?) off. Take care.
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