I'm sitting here in Laguna Beach, Calif. It's Tuesday so the Cottage Restaurant is closed. Can you imagine that. I cam down here just to eat there and ask the people if they know Paul Nelson and they are closed on Tuesdays.
The sun is shining here, it's just beautiful weather. You already know the scenery.
I came down to Newport Beach with a friend who lives in Manville. His father owns a very small beach house there. I was just going to come down for the weekend to get out of Berkeley and law school and the dorms and to get myself refreshed. Then, I was invited to Thanksgiving dinner in LaHabra, part of L.A. buy a girl whose parents are going to Arizona. So, a group of people from the dorm are coming down for that.
Well, I decided to stay down here for these 3 school days so that I could have a real vacation. And it's been really nice.
Tim and I drove down here Saturday and it seemed like it took a couple of weeks. We got stoned and were just driving and driving.
Sunday and Monday we went to the beach for awhile and relaxed the rest of the time. Tim flew back last night so I now have his truck to drive around and place to stay by the beach.
Berkeley has been going along at not a particularly good pace.
There have been some fine moments but there are too many bothersome little things, like living in the dorm, having to work, which gets frustrating because a lot of what we are learning is garbage, and lastly, having to (we interrupt this letter to bring you a public service renouncement. A shifty eyed, probably Community leaning, freak has stolen a red pen, and acting nervous, please call your local police department. Thank you. We now return to you letter, already in progress) be so very analytical and literal minded. I guess the basic problem is one of discipline. I'm working on it, and anyway, there are only 3 weeks left in this semester.
What are you doing over Christmas? I sure would like to see you. I've been very slow about writing you but there are many things I want to talk to you about. I'm flying to Chicago on a charter flight, going to Columbus to see my sister Rose, then flying to Buffalo. I should get there by Dec. 20. Will you still be around there? I'm looking forward to seeing whoever is left in Buffalo.
Do you remember Nancy, the girl who was part of my wine parties in Buffalo? Well, anyway, she drove to San Diego to see some friends of here and today they are coming up here. It will be good.
I've been disappointed by my ability to adapt so far. I think I'm being too harsh on myself. I know it will take time to build up relationships like I had in Buffalo. I fell that hits vacation will be a turning point; I've spent some time reordering my mind and deciding on courses of action.
Patience and discipline are still my keys. I've lost of lot of my patience and I never did have much discipline. Ha.
I've come up with this analogy about what's been going on. You see, it's like light waves. Each person admits these, and it's a function of their internal state as to how intense these emanations are. A laser is incredibly powerful because all is in harmony, the purpose and discipline are there. Right now I feel like I'm giving off varying intensities, at times it's fairly pure, at other times the waves get out of synchronization and the various saves, rather than reinforcing each other, merely interfere. That leads to frustration. At this point I feel like it's getting stronger. I realize I am possessed of more potential now that ever before. I need the strength to control and direct it. Well, I just go. I hope to see you in a few weeks. Let me know what you'll be going.
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